Promenade

You wake up
to again lie down
Not to sleep
but to drown
Drown in the thoughts
Thoughts when they sing
Sing they the song, Keep Walking.

You step out
out in the town
Town full of masks
Masks when they frown
Frown from the inside
Insides when they ding
Ding they the carol, Keep Walking.

You reach a stop
Stop at a fair
Fair not it was
was there to stare
Stare at a burial
Burial made them ping
Ping they the ballad, Keep Walking.

You reach a stage
stage past that age
Age of the wisdom
wisdom on a page
Page which was blank
Blanks when they ting
Ting they the anthem, Keep Walking.

You meet a someone
someone on the way
Way was a curve
curve made us sway
sway like a wave
Waves when they zing
Zing they the melody, Keep Walking.

You come back
back to your start
Start not the same
same was your part
Part irked your mind
Mind made it ring
Ring they the Lullaby.......  Keep Walking.

Zilch

Nothing is there
Nothing you can see
Nothing lies bare
Nothing you can be.

Nothing is inside
Nothing is here
Nothing comes out
Nothing can go there.

Nothing I can say
Nothing I have to speak
Nothing if I may
Nothing there is to peek.

Nothing here I feel
Nothing I want to do
Nothing left to heal
Nothing to look back to.

Nothing is the word
Nothing is the rhyme
Nothing there to gird
Nothing is a mime.

Nothing looks like you
Nothing is always here
Nothing is a breeze
Nothing has this layer.

Nothing is a me
Nothing is a you
Nothing there is to be
Nothing if its like that too.

Clockwork

Tick Tick.....Tick Tick
I wake up
open my eyes
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick
I close them again
The sleep gradually dies
A dream fades in pain
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick

The calendar,what year it says?
Two thousand fourteen
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick
Already?
A jolt, a mighty unseen
how have I been?
Oh, I hurdled through how many days?
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick

What am I doing here?
Where do I belong?
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick
Just yesterday I was there
was running bare
with great fanfare
To where?
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick

And I am headed to?
Is it that far?
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick
Do I have to march alone?
No?
I am with....you?
says who?
you?
who??
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick

How much...ummmm..time will it take?
Will I get a break, perhaps another take?
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick
Will I, You sure, reach there?
exactly where?
you care?
What was that sound?
Am I bound?
Drowned?
Tick Tick.....Tick Tick....Tick...Tic...Ti.

Gratitude.

I think this practice, this idea of writing once a year, is not working out. Not at all. At least for this time, it is not.
At this time of year, it generally happens that I feel a strong urge to write, to write on something that is there in my mind, which may have been residing there for a while and needs a vent out. I have been reasonably successful, I think in the past, to give a rhythmic/poetic play to my thoughts.
But, this time, it occurred to me to pen down my thoughts on "Gratitude".To be thankful to the higher power for everything, and I can't find words!
Am I not truly thankful? Because as they say, if you don't feel it honestly, it doesn't take the form of words. I paused for a moment and introspected. Yes, my feelings are genuine.
But why then I am not able to give it a poetic form? Well, I think there is too much to be thankful for.
When you are thankful for the ability to write, this technology you could afford, for the gods at home, for all the worldly things, for this life, for this disease-free body, for the time you and your loved ones are alive and for all the other trillion things you have in mind to be thankful for, it can't be put into a rhythmic verse.
Maybe I have lost my touch, perhaps my mind is not ready to write, but whatever may be the reason, I am grateful from the core.

Gratitude.

TIME.

Me:

"Stop...!
Stop for a moment,
Halt for a while,
Pause if you may;
It'll make this worthwhile.

Always surging ahead,
That's what you do.
Leaving nothing behind,
Nothing..to look back to.
Mortals try in vain,
in vain......to woo you.

The joyful you, sprints away.
The gloomy you, glad to stay.
Oh.....it makes your day,
Joy and sorrow, when here they fray..!

You plan it well,
Your Plan.....the heist.
The loved ones you grab,
Grand is your feast.
You.....you steal yourself,
I say....to say the least..! "

Time:
"Here I stand,
listening to you.
Hold my hand,
I'll walk you through.

I keep walking,
when you have nothing to do.
Even if you have,
What I am....you don't have a clue..!

I make you long for...
I make you smile for...
I make you cry for.........
and I make you wry for....
for nothing that is yours
for that you fought the wars?

This is not me you are holding to..
This is not me you are listening to...
for I am still moving
I am still on my run,
This is me....

Me...The Devil's son....!! "


              

Fracas

A soldier standeth amidst nothing

holding onto nothing

staring at nothing.

armeth with zilch

but eyes that sting

flapped his wing

and beckoned the king.

pouncing on him

cameth the king

thousands he bring

and death they sing.

The sands of time

maketh a ring

foes with a sting

he burns with a zing.

this is what is the bind

of a person who is lined

with the enemies in his mind.

he fights everyday

and maketh his way

through life what he was for

not a battle..but a war….!!

PENURY

I want the best

far above the rest

want to stand in the glow

with rich pomp n show...

I want the flare to follow me

& light my way as i walk in glee

walk the world with a gaze in my eye

They gape back at me..with a cry....

I want the trump of everything

fume around...the work of my zing

hoi-polloi will then sing

You are the one.....o' king!!

But...

then my thoughts began to bleed

am i that kind of breed

then vocal gets my deed

Is my WANT....what i NEED...???

SUMMON....

watching her passing by
my heart gives a sigh
that smile and a hi
with her...i want to fly....

can't tell her what i feel
in there...i bend and kneel
can't show her this side of I
don't know the reason why.....

of what i am uncertain
of what i am unsure
can't see behind the curtain
but...my feelings are pure......

what is that i need
and what i need it for?
is it only a feed to my greed
or is it way beyond the cupid's power??

on hitting the unexpected
when I'll stand corrected
will it hurt my pride
and leave me without a guide
with no place to hide??

am i facing a lie?
or the sin is that high
asking me to shout and cry
and SUMMON her
before the......final goodbye!!

OBLIVION...

i sit staring at nothing
voices all around me
and i don't hear a thing

i look here,i see there
what is hidden and what is bare
people on my side
there just to glide
they sway with my pace
with a mask on their face

sitting with them
i think about the helm
is it me??
no...and i don't want to be

then i get sleepy
my mind begins to drool
the thoughts get creepy
they leap in the devil's pool

fighting to keep my eyes open
as i think about my goal
my mind full of questions
with a teacher in my soul

this state of OBLIVION
my own world as my pillion
i ride it on my own
with all and everything i own

this duration of time
when whole world is just a mime
the sleep....starting with a peek
on the things and people i want to keep

putting away the hate
residing in my cape
lending all the sins on lease
for those hours....
i .....rest in peace.

INCERTITUDE

a question.....a thought
a query.....a plot
a doubt in my mind
one of a kind
i am dubious from the core
when i think.....
is there one life or more???


i think the answer is one
then...how to live through this one???
should i live it...as if this is it
or should i look,pause,think and stick with it???
should i live it like a king
or should i strive my way...to the center of the ring???


i look around....the world at race
strain myself to set my pace
but again....i am left in daze
will i live long....to end that chase???


when over...i don't want to regret
because then..i won't resurrect
should i do this or should i do that
is it sure...to be tit-for-tat???


i got no answer.....i got no reply
i stare in the mirror.....to a face so wry
saw it giving a sigh
and then it asks.....
"WASN'T IT EVEN WORTH A TRY???"

AN UNCERTAIN INSIGHT

A GLANCE.....AND...IT CALLED ME TO IT
HYPNOTIC....IT ENCHANTED ME A CRITIC
A CLOSER LOOK....CLINCHED TO A HOOK
ME...WAS FACING A SPOOK

WHAT I SAW...WAS A CRYSTAL ORB
TELEPATHISING ME...I GOT A THROB
QUIVERING....I TOUCHED THE BALL
FORTHWITH....IT RESPONDED TO MY CALL

SHIMMERING LIGHTS AND HAZY SMOKE
TRYING TO PROSPECT...LIFE OF A BLOKE
I STOOD GAZING...AS IT SPOKE
DUBIOUS.....MY MIND GOT A POKE

THE MONTAGE COULD BE JOYOUS WITH A SPARK
BUT...WHAT IF ITS DARKER THAN THE DARK
WAS I READY TO FACE THE WORST
NEVER......A REPLY CAME WITH BURST

I WANT TO LIVE WITHOUT ANY FEAR
THE FEAR OF FUTURE...I'LL BE UNABLE TO BEAR
IF ATROCITIES COME POUNCING ON ME
THEY WERE INTENDED TO DO SO..SO LET IT BE......

I CLOSED ME EYES AND TURNED AROUND
TO NEVER LOOK BACK AT THAT MYSTIC FOUND
A LAST SIGHT...I BID IT GOODBYE.....
AND THE HAZY LIGHT....

I LET IT DIE!!!!!

AFTERLIFE.......

WHY I COULDN'T MAKE YOU MINE
IN THIS LIFETIME???
I KNOW I WASN'T THAT BENIGN
IT WAS THE ORDER FROM DIVINE
I DIDN'T DESERVE THE SUBLIME....

THE LIFE STILL LEFT IN ME
I AM LIVING IT FOR OTHERS TO SEE
WITH YOUR THOUGHTS I BREATHE
WITH YOUR MEMORIES I SLEEP
ALWAYS WAITING FOR THE BEND
WHEN I WILL BE AT THE FAR END
AND IT WILL BE THE TIME TO REAP.....

FOR THE OFFENDER I AM
I KNOW I DON'T BELONG HERE
BUT FOR AN ANGEL LIKE YOU
HEAVEN IS ALWAYS THERE....
I WILL BE AT YOUR DOORWAY...I SWEAR
BECAUSE I WILL BE DENIED ENTRY TO THE GLARE.....

WOULD YOU LOOK AT ME
AND GIVE A SECOND LOOK???
WOULD YOU RECOGNISE ME
OR ADDRESS ME AS A CROOK???
WOULD YOU COME FOR ME AND HELP ME STAND???
I CAME FOR YOU MY LOVE....FROM A FAR AWAY LAND........

YOU COULDN'T BE MINE,DOWN THERE
IT WILL HAPPEN AND IT WILL BE RARE
I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU NOW..WHOMSOEVER HE IS
YOU ARE MY DESTINY..AND THIS IS...WHERE IT IS....
AND I PROMISE....
NOTHING WILL GO WRONG AND THERE WILL BE NO SMEARS
BECAUSE FOR THIS I HAVE PRAYED FOR YEARS....
NOW....
MY BLOOD WILL FALL IN PLACE OF YOUR TEARS!!!!

LONELINESS...

sitting in a crowded space
there is no one around me
traveling to a far off place
time runs as if to flee
hunger,sleep and glee
are now,not a part of me....

all the ballads i hear
seems to be related to me
to the remorse,i am near
now,i am paying the fee
standing all alone
far away from the word....'WE'....

i am left trespassed
robbed of everything with me
i feel empty and hollow
like a leafless tree
i sailed,i swam and i drowned
deep in that vast sea....

nothing i can do,no more i can gee
don't even ask for,anything from he
this is what i want
for this is what i plea
get my happiness back to me
coz' darkness and fear,daggers and spear
this is what i feel...
this is what i see...

THIS IS WHAT IS ME.....

THE RAIN

when it comes in summer season
we get to smile for another reason
it takes all the heat and sweat away
we wish the same for another day

when it pours as a winter rain
dont know whether its a boon or bane
some take it as a gain
and others think in disdain

rainy days...bring joy in many ways
all tend to rest and laze
farmers then get a raise
and fauna....watch in daze

but.....BUT......
what is RAIN????
from where it starts,where gets lain
my thinking didnt go in vain
i look up there,like a sane
saw someone.....
CRYING OUT IN PAIN!!!!!!

IN CLASS RHAPSODY

so sweet n feminine
fair colour so divine
doe-eyes so fine
sharp features,a good design
lips like red wine
smile like a sunshine
hair like flowing marine
tall like a erect pine
gait like a swaying rhyme
'her' aura i cant define

facing the truth in time.....
the truth....THAT SHE CANT BE MINE!!!!!

THE ROAD LESS TRAVELED

i had to play a maze
it was my life,not just a haze
i was standing in daze
on a road,dividing into two ways....

one of the paths,i had to choose
the choice will be my fate,for the rest of my use
both had the same start and the end
in what they differ,was the hardships to defend....

i made my pick....with a fear
a hoarse laughter,then,i hear
i knew my fate had played its part
and it hit my heart,like a dart....

then,a loud voice told me the rest
what my fate chose was the worst at its best
't was the devil's maze,unrivaled and unparalleled
what i chose
was THE ROAD LESS TRAVELLED....

i began with my expedition to heaven
the road was gloomy and dark,like a demon
thorns and creatures,poison and mud
i was all wet,drenched in my blood....

in the way,a fairy appeared
her glow and beauty was what i feared
sent by god,a help in a human form
to fight my way,up to the heaven's dorm....

at the very first sight,i fell in love
serene and white,like a dove
she touched my wounds,her touch so gentle
the pain vanished,as if a temporary mantle....

she looked into my eyes and held my hand
stepped before me on that thorny land
the ruthlessness was pouring like rain
she was clearing my way,by swallowing the pain....

i was weak,caught in her spell
she was hurt and bleeding like hell
covering me like a shell
whispering sweet nothings to me,
to hide her yell....

a large gateway ahead,it screeched
the gateway to heaven,i had reached
i looked at my angel,by whom i was preached
still holding my hand..then...i felt the breach.....

she collapsed....there in my arms
i felt my heart suffered a thousand qualms
her eyes closed,her skin so pale
the life from her body,went out on bail....

i kept on looking at her,could do that for years
her face was getting cleaned,by the rain of my tears
in my arms was my love,behind were my fears
ahead was my destiny,for which i had suffered for years....

after thinking hard,i rose to my feet
i turned around,challenged my defeat
started my way back,to the very beginning
devil's mind....was now dribbling....

"o devil...you fool!!!
now,its your turn to drool
as long as i have life
as long as i live
i'l continue this journey
from the start to the cliff....

all my life..I'll do it again and again
i don't need heaven for my selfish gain
and do you know,what will i get in addition to pain????

a lifetime to spend on that ROAD LESS TRAVELLED
WITH MY ANGEL,MY LOVE,MY FANE!!!!!"

WHY ME????

whenever i feel down
and smile turns into a frown
whenever i feel.....
it should not have happened to me
on turns the reel.....
WHY ME???

whatever aspect may it be
starting with studies
i tell you,what did he
i worked hard from the core
what i got was bad score!!

talking about friends and pals
i am always tricked
and it ends in brawls
whomsoever i thought was my best
was as cunnning as the rest...

then...about the fairer sex
got it like a humongous hex
thought myself as a reigning rex
killed it...with my own axe!!

seeing a rich man's pomp and show
a crow pecks on my brow
and asks me to grow
the size of my pocket
to own a blow!!

in every aspect,big or small
all he tries,is to haul
and everytime i ask the mighty HE
hey.........WHY ME???

he answers in an instant
"see around you,a mile distant....
look at the poor on the pavement....
and you still thinking about your cravement??"

"see the blind,who cant see the daily sun...
a handicap,who cant run...
put this question to an orphan...
like me,do you have the daily fun???"

now,i see,i m so wealthy
just need to be a little stealthy
thoughts,relations and aspects which are not sound
maybe,i am eating that all up....like a hound!!

people say....everything he does is for good
but thats too hard to believe
when in the battlefield....

ALONE YOU STOOD!!!!

STILL WAITING.....

life seems so empty
there is no one to mend me
i am on a thinking spree
why i am alone in this amity??

they walk hand in hand
realising my life is so bland
i am stuck in a manky sand
addressed as a one man band!!

getting more than their worth
my heart burns,as if in hearth
we together in a single berth
me and my loneliness....since birth

maybe there is something good in store for me
whats there for me...lets see
you are free to charge your fee
GOD....but,
dont make me wait till eternity!!!

A QUERY TO GOD

o god
the man above i cant find
what came in your mind
that you created mankind??

first you created planet earth
then you poured life on it,with a mirth
that shows you are not a nerd
but the question in the first place is....
why you created this world???

was it an act to showcase your power??
and show to others who you are
before you created this thing
was there someone except you....O KING???

you created life,then relations
divided this world into many nations
was this you thought about your credention??
now that.....you must need to mention!

you created relations,family and friends
for you,it was just one of your errands
to help each other in many a way
but why in the end they go away??

rascals fight and the culprits pledge
and the fittest survive,with a sledge
some are rich,with a golden bed
and many cant afford,even the daily bread!!

some get everything,whatever they yearned
many dont get,even when earned
do you answer to a special call??
thats nepotism MY LORD....this and all....

i am not blaming you at all
your creation,its your right to maul
who knows
this world was just a gift you made
for your loved one
as a frill to HER plaid!!!!!!

IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES

lying in my bed
thinking what my heart just said
what if......tomorrow i am dead???

my loving parents as my shoulders
my friends to carry me over the boulders
what if my shoulders give away
and my carriage breaks in way???

this life is so short
its not the thing which can be bought
with time the body begins to rot
but,thats not what my heart just thought

what if tomorrow never comes
whatever i feel,i think,away it runs
all the people who do not know
that i love and admire them so
along with me and my soul
away this feeling goes

would my parents know i love them like anything??
would my friends know,for them i give a damn to everything??
would she know i still miss her everyday??
and my ship sinks before reaching the bay

i still got to do so much in life
have to clear myself from all the strife
have to stand up to expectation
and give a blow to my traduced reputation

but,then again my heart asks me to see
what if there is no tomorrow for thee?????

A STORY UNTOLD....

't started as good
he had something else in mind
didn't knew in hood
he'd be left far behind

sweet,slim and supple......she was
many a deep sighs.....she caused
he was there,in the long line
caught her there,just in time

she thought,"I've got my man"
to live and laugh together
as long as she can
but in deep,he was a clever muller
obsessed with the picture
not the real colour

she was a kid at heart
which he ravaged apart
a good daughter,a good sis
her existence.....a bliss

she laboured so hard
to gratify a pard
that man....that lard
treated her,like a ward

as time passed by
and the things running smooth
he and his world
she figured the sooth

he owned that doll
for a good three years
kept it on a roll
and it accepted...with tears

in that hot harsh furnace
she created a mould
casted herself and her heart
when cold,that grew out so bold

so,when he thought of ending it all
she didn't raise a cry or hue
accepted that all
with firmness and no dew

at this moment of time
she seems to be happy and content
leaving that all behind
no scratches and not a dent

all things when owned
are never regarded their place
but when they are gone
there's no replace

this is what, felt he
repenting what he did to she
she was best he could ever get
now left with nothing
but for remorse and regret

he started it and he ended
he hunted and then repented
maybe he's sad,maybe he's lonely
but why it's happening
when everything is so homely??????